It seems like everyone I know is running in circles. Gotta go here. Gotta do this. Gotta run do that.
Sleep? Who has time for sleep, much less rest?
A few days ago, I jumped off that hamster wheel. It got to be a bit too much for me.
All the responsibilities. All the need-tos. All the stuff that life requires of us.
Those things were tiring enough, but when you receive news that your mother and your mother-in-law are both facing potential health issues…well…that’s when the brakes have to be applied, and applied fast.
Over the past two weeks, I have maybe been fortunate enough to get three fairly decent nights of sleep. Just three.
Last night we discovered that Mr. LaVeaux’s mother is out of the hospital and doing much better. My mother’s biopsy came back clear.
Now, I’m taking time for a little break. More important than that, I’m taking the time to breathe.
Do you ever notice that when you’re uptight, worried, overworking and doing more than a person really should try to do in one 24 hour period that your breathing seems to stop?
Of course you’re still breathing, but you’re mostly on autopilot. And being on autopilot under stress for too long can take a lot out of you.
It’s been a silent period for me lately as I’ve been dealing with stressors and all the things that life likes to pile upon a person.
I’m sure you understand where I’m coming from. You’ve probably even had or are currently going through something similar.
If so, don’t wait too long to take the time you need. If you need a break, carve one out for yourself, even if it’s just ten minutes.
I’ve been off social media and I’ve not blogged anything worthwhile in a period of days. Heck, this post here may not be very worthwhile, but I have the need to write.
So here I am, for better or for worse.
My husband and I spent the past weekend out of town, but we didn’t do much of anything fun. We were both so wiped out mentally and physically, emotionally and spiritually, that we ended up spending most of our time at the hotel, in the room.
He collapsed into a chair and I fell onto the bed. We had enough energy to get an early dinner, and that was it.
Some “time away from home.” The only good thing that happened was getting a good night’s sleep.
As I sit here, thinking about where I am at this moment, I realize that my thoughts are still scattered.
You know what? I’m actually okay with that.
In the time I’ve been away from this blog, I have discovered a new opening chapter to my novel which is forming and growing and exciting me with each sentence I write. I have opened my eyes to the beauty of a Georgia spring. The yellow pine pollen is coating everything. Birds are singing in the trees outside. The sun is shining and it’s just a perfect moment to be alive.
How are things where you are?
Take a minute to look out the window, or better yet go outside for five or ten minutes. Close your eyes and just breathe. Sense the wonder of nature all around you. If you are in an urban environment, allow yourself to feel the energy of the city as you stand in its presence.
Being present is what it’s all about. And it starts with taking the time you need when you need it.
Peace to you…and many deep breaths.